DKILLER

2012-01-15T02:51:00.000-08:00

I miss you baby..I just hope you will run back to me.. coz i genuinely love you

LOVE!!!!

2010-08-15T12:09:00.000-07:00

I am truely gifted... thank you god.. i am not arrogant or boastful of what i have..i have only got her.. and i only need her.. she mean the world to me.

I am ONE man standing against all odds..I do have many forces working against me.I know that she loves me and all..She said she can live without me.. but she cannot bear to see anyone in the place of hers.She said she will die..Whereas this sad friend here..Ahil. is helpless as he fall head over heels in love with this girl..he cant possible live without her...

This Guy right here.. is crazy in love with the girl named Farzanah Barween.Setting religions.. customs and whatever hitting against me aside.. I only want to be with this girl of my dreams.This is the Love of my Life.I am confident.

Today, I had an arguement with my mom.She asked me why i was fasting.I say it was for my own reasons.The real reason was that i love this girl and this is small thing that i want to do with her.. well i just wanted to feel the future where i wanted to be a loving husband to her and take care of her and Live a Family with her with kids and all.

My mom told me that i did not do anything for the family and asked me is this how ure going to show us the thankfulnesss that we grew you up.Then i asked her what do you want me to do..She said stop fasting...She started to tear.. then i told her.. when fasting.. i am not supposed to hurt people's feelings.. Listen.. I HAVE STOPPED FASTING..!!! HAPPY!!!! But that doesnt mean i stop loving her.. I Only love her. and i am telling you.. if you do allow me to marry her.. i will run away to some other country and make sure i do not get married at all.Tears broke out of my eyes and my heart ached when i thought of a life with out her

After awhile.. i was crying a river..then i went to my mom.. Kneeled and cried to her... and told her..Maa... I really love her and i really do wana live my life with her.. Please..

After 15 mins..

Then she said it...

She told me that if i was to have this relationship as years to come she will agree to the marriage.!! I was sooo happy after that...OMG.. its like 3/4 of my dream come true.. But the condition is that i shudnt do all the fasting and all now she say.. do it when ure dad is aware of it and when ure abit more older.. youre just 20..i know your grownup.. however you have to wait for the age.

ITS A YES!!!!! I LOVE YOU BARWEEN!!!

Day 6

2009-12-11T04:41:00.000-08:00

Every man's secret of success..has woman in it... even as with her presence...

My path seems stirred up with her essence..

As i look at the empty shadows which shows a single and lonely figure...
I cant help but to say that the feeling without You just makes me shiver...

I am looking upon the day that ure to return to me
and then which I can hold u against my heart and shout aloud"WEEEEE!!!"

I LOVE YOU BABY!!!

Day 5

2009-12-09T02:17:00.000-08:00

A fairytale Story...

In a small Singapore..There lived a small boy named akhil..He had everything in life..He had good friends, the studies,and whatever a average person needs..he showed everyone love and care.But he didnt have anyone who shows him the same love he shows.. a companion who can live his life to the fullest...

The one fine day.. he was sitting sadly at Yew tee McDonalds looking at couples exchanging their love for each other..he gt very sad...The suddenly..POOF!! a weird looking fairyGodmother appeared infront of Akhil..

She asked him wad was bothering him..
He replied..I really need someone to love with all my heart.. someone whom i will hold till the end and take care of... a sweet girl who will love me for whom i am..With sniff of her pandi nose..A angel dropped out of the nowhere..The only diff was that she had no wings..other than that.. she was a real angel..Akhil's eyes sparkled...and love was in tha air.. n here we goooo...Its a real life story...Need an evidence?? ask akhil..where.? here.. coz i am akhil...Yes... this angel changed my life..and nothing is ever going to change the fact..

Im going to be there for her to smell me all day..

Im going to be there for her to hug me all day...

Im going to be there even if its going to rain or shine..

Always sweeping you off your feet..

In times of our small fights and torture(Sweet torture)

Coz i know that Ure the one for me and that i know that nothing is going to change that fact..

I love you baby love!!!

MISSING YOU!!!

Day after 2moro.. YOU WILL BE HERE!!! RAWWWRRRR!!!

Day 4

2009-12-08T23:50:00.000-08:00

Saw this video on the malayalam song on tv...... gt reminded me of u... the whole day went on as i was playing this song... again n again... when ure back.. i shall tell what it means with lotsa love...i love you baby.. mwaaahh!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyE8uzkPU48&feature=related

Day 3

2009-12-08T18:16:00.000-08:00

Can somebody pinch me..??? i really cant understand whether i am living a dream or what..Just have to say that she came..talked..hold my hand.. then i fall.. n i was lost in the feeling forever....and im loving it.. Today's nt bad..doing gd.. and memories still refusing to stop flowing in and ending me up in tears...But i am loving her more anyone in this world now..

Farzanah Barween <-- click here

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Day 2

2009-12-05T04:32:00.000-08:00

Dear bloggy..
i have been holding on quietly for a long time...ok.. here goes..

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ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU FARZANAH BARWEEN!!! and I MISS YOU like nothing else in this world!!!
Tears are not enough as i cry for U...each day i fall in deeper..Never have i been selfish..Now i am..I need you and i will never want to let you go.. not coz of some reason other ppl might say as that ure pretty.. hot or anything..i see a far more stronger and rooted reason..the reason that I have never gotten a better gift from God.. may it be from allah or may it be from any of respected Hindu gods.I am never going to let her tear.. even if there is going to be a drop.. i promise that i will be there to hold it back with my hand...

Enough of words.. lemme show it to you in life...RAWWRR!!

Come back quick.. daddy wants to hug ya tight...

The sound of a kiss is not so loud as that of a cannon,
but its echo lasts a great deal longer..likely my love for you will last forever...

Day 1

2009-12-03T19:16:00.000-08:00

Dear Bloggy.. days are becoming more and more draggy..hope she is fine there..wanting to see her badly.. hmmm... just think that i will have to bear with it...Went to the gym today..the radio was blasting in there.. the deejays were like saying that if we were to have a bad day or something.. we have to think about 4 things which was good on that bad day.

So here i am going to reflect on today..

1st-->I was on my way back home in the mrt... I do not know how but i smelled her perfume....The presence was felt..then came a few slides of memories of our MRT trips to all the places.

2nd-->As i got down at City Hall to change over to the red line..I saw the mirrors and the seats... remember the tie when i ridiculously danced infront of her..hehe..

3rd--> The fact that i was hearing this song for than 20 times today...En kadhal solla neram illaiun kadhal solla thevai illai nam kadhal solla vaarthai illai unmai maraithaalum maraiyaadhadi

4th-->I had a fun day out with my friends.. memories of her came as a breeze..and took me away with it..

I realized that things which makes me happy has her in it..thats y.. i love her..hmmm Miss You baby..RAWRRRRRR!!!!

Im counting down till she is back...meoww!!

Day 0 (Send-off)

2009-12-02T19:35:00.000-08:00

dear baby..Sorry for tears yesterdae..Just thought about the fact that i will not be able to see you for quite a long period of time..it was automatic.. hehe...morning was filled with your essence ..but as you had to put down the phone at 10:30am to take the flight...it felt heavy in my heart..time seemed to drag as you left..hmm...words were not enough.. i really felt as if i forgot to tell somethingimpt to ya....

Hema having operation today.. hope she will be better as soon as possible. Get well soon Hemuu!! She is Don.. she will be fine.. hehe..
As for my darling.. here you go... En kadhal solla neram illai un kadhal solla thevai illai nam kadhal solla vaarthai illai unmai maraithaalum maraiyaadhadi

Un kaiyil sera engavillai un tholil saaya aasaiyillai nee pona pimbu sogam illai endru poi solla theriyadhadi

Un azhagale un azhagale en veyil kaalam adhu mazhai kaalam un kanavale un kanavale manam alaipaayum mella kudai saayum

En kadhal solla neram illai un kadhal solla thevai illai nam kadhal solla vaarthai illai unmai maraithaalum maraiyaadhadi

Kaatrodu kai veesi nee pesinaal endhan nenjodu puyal veesudhe
vayadhodum manadhodum sollamale sila ennangal valai veesudhe kadhal vandhale kannodu dhan kallathanam vandhu kudi yerumo konjam nadithenadi konjam thudithenadi indha vilayaattai rasithenadi

Un vizhiyaale un vizhiyaale en vazhi maarum kan thadumaarum adi idhu yedho oru pudhu yekkam idhu valithalum nenjam adhai yerkum

Oru vaarthai pesamal enai paaradi undhan nimidangal neelatume veredhum ninaikaamal vizhi moodadi endhan nerukangal thodaratume yaarum paakkamal enai paarkiren ennai ariyamal unai paarkiren siru pilaiyena endhan imaigal adhu unai kandaale gudhikindradhe

En adhigaalai en adhigaalai un mugam paarthu dhinam yezha vendum en andhi malai en andhi malai un madi saiyndhu dhinam vizha vendum
En kadhal solla neram illai un kadhal solla thevayilai nam kadhal solla vaarthai illai unmai maraithaalum maraiyadhadi
Un kaiyil sera yengavillai un tholil saaya aasaiyillai nee pona pimbu sogam illai endru poi solla theriyadhadi

Mwah sunshine..

Journal till the day you are back...♥

2009-11-28T19:36:00.000-08:00

Till da dae ur back in spore.. im gona reflect on how my life seem to be in those days here....

DKILLER BODYWORKX

2009-02-21T10:47:00.000-08:00

It all started when i cleared my Dad's cupboard...It was a mess..Full of old stuff (Dad n Mom 's Golden old days, my baby pics..).. While organizing the stuff.. i came across a photo of a Muscular man doing bodybuilding....and..IT WAS MY DAD..Dun b-lif...??? See for urself..Omg..i couldnt believe my eyes..Looked dam fierce..Since then i was deeply inspired by that.. i created some goals for myself...i promised that i will not stop till i get da Perfect body that i wanted...i wanted to be someone.. an identity of who i am..i decided that i have to work for it.. i worked hard from that day onwards....My counting starts..... My body when i started out.. after a big workout a very long run in the yishun park...See the improvements as the time passes....

My back with faint cuttings.. not obvious..very mild..no visible biceps..

AFTER 6 Months Of wearing off...

Training was not as easy as i expected..Had to dedicate alot of time...Wordsof dicouragements were passed around..My answer:I DUN CARE!!!..i would not stop till i attain what i wanted!!

PUMPING OF IRON HAVE BEGUN....

When we are at the top of life..God just loves to test our love for our passion... due to the lack of anger management... i fractured my arms..Haizz...Due to that i lost my shape..i couldnt workout for 3 months

Training resumes..

It was more painful than before.. i had steel-plating in my hand..No giving up my friends...TRAINING HAS TO GO ON...

Seeing Results....

This is something which im very proud of....MY V-back!!

AS ON (18/02/09)

Thats all folks...This was a inspirational post for all those pp out there who have a passion on bodybuilding and a shout-out to say that KEEP WORKIN IT GUYS..DO NOT GIVE UP!!!!!! Well me..?.. Im not just done yet.. Im moving on to the next level...building a more massive body..Aitex.. Finally a quote for u ppl..

'' The strongest among the weak is the one who doesn't forget his weaknesses and works till eternal glory "

Holidays(Work) in Sentosa!!

2009-01-30T06:49:00.000-08:00

SENTOSA!!!!

Started work very quiet. but the staff there cheered me up to the max.. no more words... let the me show you some pics and share with you some experiences from there

The holidays are here and im all busy...working.working..working.. trust me.. i weared my ass off.. during the CNY holidays..Alot of banglas came to Sentosa Seah Im interchange where i was working...Have to say.. There are idiots with no sense of direction.. only know how to push for things that they just have to wait..They pushing as if the entry tickets to sentosa are to be sold out.....Just take a look at those banglas in action...

Come on la people...Queue up properly lah...I will tell you how the situation was like....it was like one bangla will be waiting on the queue to buy tickets where all of his brotherhood will be waiting along the way for that single fella to buy the tickets...They are waiting as if there might be some people coming to steal their tickets...See for urself in the picture.. people queueing up on the left.. then then rest of the baiyas waiting at the right...

The queue extended all the way to the bridge.. up the bridge until harbourfront centre..The most irritating part was when they startes their "pushing".. and there was a groping incident where a bangla baiya anyhow touched a lady... i dunno where...it seems that she screamed out and cried.. and police came down to control the crowd...GUESS WHO STARTED WORK AT THAT TIME???...HAHAHA...ME!!!!!

I came into the rescue due to the lack of manpower and as the baiyas were getting out of control...see me in action...The orange and green colour shirt guy....BAIYA!!! Watch Out!!!

We had to be kind of harsh in pushing them back as they are getting over the limit by squeezing the people infront..One grandmother almost fainted...haha.. she was stuck among the baiyas who were too busy buying their precious tickets...But i got to tell you People it was damn fun to control such big crowd... Even if you people dun understand why.. my staff will knnow why...hahaha.. thats it for this post people...more happenings to your com screens soon...as long as i dun get lazy again....hahaha...

FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-01-07T06:35:00.000-08:00

There was not a day which i didnt thought about her... She came into my life and spoilt my sleep and everything..Left all alone.. i continued my life.. life went on with friends.. exams and many more stuff like lepaking below blocks or pranking our discipline master (a hairy Fucker).Life went on fine but with lots of pain deep within...OK Stopping with the pain and emo stuff...Lemme tell u all about my friends in Secondary school and who are with me now.... AND STRICTLY THEY ARE NOT IN ANY PARTICULAR ORDER

First person who come to my mind is Jaya(Kaya)...he is a very irritating yet funny guy who just loves to make fun of people.. The only thing he lacks is that the lack of timing for his jokes...he will make a joke when everyone is serious and doing the work..For example.during the O'level school study periods..we were seriously studying and he started disturbing a girl jumma begum..yess..her size is also as big as her. Poor girl..hahaha..Totally jaya is a very good freind who understands the feeling of all his friends.

Next Muhes(Md Mushif),the soccer star of the group the guy whom i first met during soccer matches among Ahmad ibrahim Pri and Peiying Pri..since then..Muhes has always been in his world of soccer.. he is very well known among girls in Sec Sch days...very friendly. and he is always with us.The funniest things abt him is that he invents lyrics for songs and words(YKB..etc..)..hahaha...but he is really a cool dude.

Here comes Pravin (Mama Nigger)malayalee bro No.1.the nigger of the group. He loves to disturb people too. Approved playboy.He loves to take very much care about himself..coz he is always with a perfume, powder, comb and many more..haha..Yet he is a very good listener and recently i found out that he is a very good councilor under some specific conditions which are confidential...hahahaha
Next Anand(Aandan)..the so-called Rumbae nallavan...hahaha..Famous for his outstanding teeth which he lost a few months back.A super-friendly guy. But he will disappear out of sudden during Sec sch days...He is also the very good helper of the group.. especially for jaya..hahaha..totally a very nice guy.

Next Vicnes(Vinces) his other name... i will not publish that..he is one of da very best listeners..but he is a bad advisor..nice guy who is always confused to take his decisions himself.This is where we friends play our part.help him in his decisions(he will know wad kind of decisions)..loves to powder himself.. often put too much of it.yet a handsome guy..

Jeyan(Jayanthi) Malayalee bro No.2. The darling of the group..hahaha..he is a very chubby guy who is good with his guitar.. At first he was in the world of rock.. punk rock and those stuff..now he is back to normal..hahaha.. joking... he is always normal..A good advisor.Rumbae experienced..he has gone through alot of shit and he is a very loving guy..and whoever his future girl might be.. she is lucky...
Dinesh(Dinmak)Malayalee bro No.3.The very good soul of the group. He knows his limits and never exceeds it. A kind and loving soul.Still can remember the time u came to meet me late at night to help me thru the time i was having problems with relationships.You touched my heart.. Just remember..heaven is awaiting for u..hahaha

These are the friends who are have been... and will be with me forever in life...MY DEAR

BROS...HAVOC BROS..